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Down and depressed.

My girl disappointed and upsetted me again. This time round I dunno what to do.

I was sick for 3 fuken days last week. First nite, I SMSed her informing her about my illness. I was fuken weak and my whole body ached like hell. I was bedridden if u had read my previous post.

Maybe because my replies to her SMS were short and simple, mostly 1 sentence, she thot I dun care for her, and can't be bothered. Why can't she be a little more understanding? I swore my head planned to explode on me man. I can't even think well, and I felt so awfully AWFUL.

Next day, she didn't call nor SMS me the whole day. And so was the 3rd. I was fuken pissed that she didn't show any care and concern for me. She did not even drop by to have a look at me. What kinda gf is this? Sigh...

I thot she would be the last gf I would ever wanna have. I'm so sick of getting attached so many times and breaking up.

She would always say I dun love her. She didn't know I love her with all I have. Why can't she just believe that I fuken love her maybe not very very very very very much, but at least more than any other I loved before. Loving someone doesn't mean showing it. It resides in the heart.

My mum likes her.

My dad likes her.

Even my maid likes her.

It looks like I'm so wrong yet again in my choice. Maybe it isn't her fault at all. It just wouldn't work out. We shall see...

I thot by bringing her along for the Genting trip, we would get closer. I was very very happy during the stay. I thot she felt so too. I dunno why it turn out like that when we come back. Apparently, it didn't.

I miss her damn bloody much. I dunno if she misses me too.

Maybe its about time...

Maybe I should make her hate me so she would feel better if I end it.

Having deep thots now, no mood to blog.

My heart aches whenever I think about my high hopes for her, as a gf, as a future wife.

Haiz... its all fated.

Shall blog again when I have the mood.

TataZz.... Good day everyone.
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